How I WISH...

How I wish i could fly and dream what ever dream of mine will come true...that's why it is call a dream. A dream is always remands as dreams although we try to archive, work for it and dream for it....i don't believe this quote "Belajar rajin-rajin,kita akan dapat apa yang kita nak" its just a words that makes me sick of it...

i study hard and less play and less social but what did i get? out of nothing...i wanted to be what i want to be but instead i have to stay here and stuck here with the stuff that i doesn't like to do and never dream to be here...How i wish god could granted my wish & make me satisfied...but i does sound selfish cause it seems that im not feeling gratitude with what i have...but this is not the life that i want..i wish someone could understands me more than i do...maybe this is the reality of life that i will face where those difficulties are ahead of me and lots of important and urgent decision and this decision brings a lot of changes in my attire life...i'm still young to get older in this and still not enough mature to decide and to conclude anything...this is just the first step but how bout the other step later? this might affect the cause that i neglect the first step....owhh gosh! Im stuck and needs help and opinion from the others....(how come i can't decide?) because the answer is only accepted is Yes or No...How i wish i could have a therapist who might give me a hand for this but back to square one still i have to decide...lots of thing to be consider amd to lose and maybe there is some opportunity as a platform for me to be ahead..the most important here is the EXPERIENCE. this skills won't cause anything but experience do have bad days and happy days.. :( sighed... 

i wish im now at the beach & feel the breezing air & breath with it hear the sea, and the sand on the beach.. and maybe with those therapy will get the answer for this thing...*but believe me just pray to god maybe i will find my way out with this difficulties.